i now walk the road
like i had so many times before
times have changed
so have you
feelings are gone
so are you and i
ever since we departed
you door was closed
for me
yet i walked around it
tried my luck
you left it closed
i stayed in the cold
just before the cherries started to bloom
is when we met are doom
i crawled back to
back to what i knew
climbed the wall
built around you
until my hands
turned scarlet red
that's the moment
i realized
everything was dead
where do we go from here
into the darkness quiet and blackness
out of nothing echoes in silence
comes forest and grows
full of tall sky reaching ancient
trees emerald and amber leaves
silent life and wild vividness
these are the witnesses of time
passing by yet standing wide and far
as far my eyes could see nothing else in my vision
just this forest filled with leaves
branches filled with mysteries winds and shadows
with their skinny hands playing tricks and dares
with falling blissful colorful sheds
wrinkled leaf gliding through air
up and down shaking slower each time around
all the way from the bottom to these clawed ends
my small tiny self lost in the midst among these giants
these corduroy needles surrounding me
my small self like nothing amongst the vast universe
to a point
the world has slowed to down
to a point when you can actually see it's shape
and on your pale skin with no moisture
can feel the gentle autumn whispering breeze
coming to the palm of your hand
agony and chaos faded away
quiet whisper from around mind's eye
comes closer and become louder
to some a handful distant voices
become clear and so much thoughtful
one stands clear in the million
one and not the one of none
and you know what to do
what to avoid not to crumble down
constant poking on the skull of your mind
tell you what to do
to your own
wake up to your dimming dream
flashing and tumbling through
paired eyes down the tree to its roots
back to the mold
rumble and chatter
widen the apple of the eye had began
blanket closer faster each time again
bright glow fades away
and realities become curled
mystified once clear now
become all but a grain of sand
thousands grains of sand
one following the next
each on their way down
through the bottle’s neck
endless stream all the same
except the first one and the last
they stand apart
marking the beginning and the end
emptied now my cup is
it's been some time
since the last time
separation was so big
no one to fill the days with bliss
spend them all alone
and the nights
feel so cold
when you're not around
keep on waiting
holding on
holding onto
your memory
the one that's been burned
into my mind
burned deep
so i can
never forget you
but now
i am slowly like a snail
getting evicted
out of this scene and my shell
into the burning amber of my personal hell
because you are not around anymore
this empty vacant place
is so hard to maintain on my own
and price I’ve paid was high enough
for me to live like golden monarch
but felt like slave in galleys
on my way across the waves
one small candle
it's the only thing
keeping me company
at this moonless night
i kept starring at the flickering flame
until it slowly faded away
with last narrowing
fading whip of a smoke
candle burned out
long before it’s service
was truly fulfilled
it's purpose
long before the true meaning
was revealed
now i'm left in the dark
alone
with my lonesome thoughts
can't shake
the past away
for this lonely present
i can't see the future due
that's all around me
the one that surrounds me
night and through day
until the time
the year and day
from which I start to fade away
white bright grows to grey
gravel and dirt
black and darkness
twirl and curl
back to loins
back to twisting roots
fiend or a friend
sunlight inevitably falls and ails
vividness comes to brightest peak and in to the blackness
arms wide open until the end
bloody scarlet wails and soaks
murky covers flow and become silhouettes
clouds once misty now disappear
ghostly shadows now have jagged shapes
all just grows and soars
into the darkness
as it rises from the corner of a dome
which now echoes and calls back
bright now gloomy unearthly sight
filled with howling at times distant
closer now goes
shoot and cuts like hundreds arrow
bursted through this skull and into the soul
nest now ratchet spill and spoils
the silence in the emptiness
free bird
young and yearning
you crave for your freedom
breathing space
vast
something to call mine
something to own
endless horizon
a place to soar
float away
drift away with the wind
watch the meadows
bathe in the sun
rays at noon
as they perish
under your wings
passing underneath
watch the blue serpentine rivers
let their torrent take you to the sea
garden full of emerald trees
touch their tops
with your fingertips
as you pass them by
the journey you’re taking
it's not about
the end
life
is not about the
death
living is not about your grave
it's all about the little things
all around us
that you can’t see
the beautiful things
sun beams radiating
through a raindrop
take a deep breath
and enjoy them
reap all that you can
along the way
don't just run
at full speed
run to the finish line
blindly
what else is
there to gain
you got everything
never owned
pain and suffering
were shown
nothing
belonged
separate
reversed feelings
grew
condensed
the air
became thick
boiled
between
these brick
walls
no matter
where you are
things you
they will
always
affects you
life is still
like
water in a pond
mirror
reflecting you
underneath
another life
on it’s own
world
different
to those who
do not know
throw a stone
ripple
one
now a dozen more
one
sudden moment
breaks the stillness
up above
wreaks a havoc
down below
deeper you go
more it shows
the history
lost in the fever
abandoned
everything
connecting
with past
no threads
unwinding
nothing
reaching out
time for mourning
is it real?
feeling is gone
one and
all them
mourning
what's the reason
trying to find what is missing
the past
what is there for me
to gain
nothing but hurt
is that what’s needed?
come back
relive it
spot on the line
now you're standing
still
undecided
hundreds of thoughts
spinning around you
which
is the way
which
one is the one
anchor
to save you
guide to
reason
guide through
season
