Ups and downs

once again, calling me
my one and only ethereal friend
roaming the emptiness
eternally
every day, just the same
ups and downs
is this what's left?
all alone.
forces greater than my
imagination
are the ones
that set this all
motion
is true what they say?
that you make your own luck?
you choose your own destiny?
can you tell me
if my dices were rolled so
bad
or is it just me
and my discontent