one way ticket

i have not been myself
since you left that night
it was just like a dream
turned into a nightmare
how foolish of me
to believe all the lies
yet i still cannot live without them
i believed that if you told them a million times
they will come true
did you ever think
that i was just fooling around with you?
all the chances throughout our lives
ignored
now i just walk alone
road full of bumps and holes
without destination
loathing what has become of me
fearing what is yet to come
i cannot stay here
everywhere i go, every single thing
reminds me of you
neither one of us can forget,
guilt remains, forgiveness comes to mind
but is never said aloud
i waited, hoping it will all pass,
no end in sight,
failure is an option,
can't take it anymore,
only one way out, leave it all
one way ticket out of here